Friday, June 14, 2013

philosophical musings



I have lived my whole adult life in NYC.  My whole working life.  Mostly it's been a good match.  I like the pace of the place and as some of you may know, I'm wound pretty tight.  In NYC most people are, so I fit right in.  But sometimes I feel like I'm waiting for something, some next thing.  I'm keeping up, treading water, passing through, but to what...I don't know.

We've been in Santa Fe for 10 days and I've realized something:  I have never had a place to come home to after work where I was glad to just be.

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy to see my husband and my cat every single day.  My apartment doesn't suck; I know plenty of people would be thrilled to have it.  But it's 400 square feet and the window looks at a brick wall and there's no air.  When I come home from work, there is no happy sigh, no expansion of the heart, no balance.  I think those would be nice.

I'd like to put down my tools, kick off my shoes, and sit down in plein air with a book and a cold drink.  I'd like to take a stroll with my husband after supper and not dodge taxi cabs and delivery trucks.  I'd like to step outside my kitchen door to pick a few herbs for my supper.  Hell, while we're at it, I'd like to eat supper outdoors every once in a while. 

Maybe it's time.




8 Comments:

At June 15, 2013 at 8:17 AM , Anonymous Leda Meredith said...

Indeed, it sounds like it may be time, if not now then very, very soon. Gorgeous photos, but you knew that.

 
At June 15, 2013 at 9:36 AM , Blogger Robert said...

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At June 15, 2013 at 9:37 AM , Blogger SaraGardens said...

How could we not want that for you? We are so very lucky to have even a slice of that right here... (or I think that's we'd have sought out our own version of SF).

 
At June 15, 2013 at 10:48 AM , Blogger Linda said...

Ahhh, Santa Fe may win, after all. I was always happy for you to have the Pennsylvania weekend escape, all green and expansive. But life in Santa Fe is compelling. Now it's time to celebrate the privilege of choice.

 
At June 15, 2013 at 11:35 AM , Anonymous Mark said...

You said it: "expansion of heart." We all need that in our daily lives. It's what makes coming home to my grandma house in Bloomfield, NJ joyful. A little space to simply be. And to be a bit filled up by. Having seen your haven in SF, I get it. Big time.

 
At June 15, 2013 at 2:06 PM , Blogger Alessaundra Suvet said...

These photos are beautiful, as you already know, but I had to say it :)

 
At June 15, 2013 at 10:41 PM , Blogger Unknown said...

And it's only 2.5 hours from ABQ to SFO (or SFO to ABQ). I'm just sayin'...

 
At July 10, 2013 at 5:28 PM , Blogger frank@nycg said...

It's the dream that continuously pulls.

 

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